Sunday, November 8, 2009
Last year i was given a temptation of the world. At the same time in God's kingdom , i was already progressing in a very intimate level of closeness with him. But well , i choose to venture into the world. Though as i look back, i knew it was a period of blessing being poured down in my group. But i missed the harvest and lost all my hard work. But i wouldn't say i wished i didn't choose the world because falling is a process of success as many does not see it. I'm rueful of what happened , at least because i've stepped outside the world, I've experienced things that will help others to grow, i walked the path of many. Things that happened to are most of the time , just inevitable.
Denise went to the Hong Kong ldrship thing years ago, she told me the pastor there prophesied for me that many problems will happen to me but they happen for a reason - to make me stronger out of the group. I had no doubt about that because the night during HEROs camp, i stepped forward to Pastor shirley's calling of rising as a CL, i knew i had to pay a lot of price to be what God wants me to be. Thats why so many things had been happening to me. I know God is pruning me . It's easy to say one will get stronger out of problems but not easy to go through them.
But now all i want , is to start all over from scratch , building back my intimacy with God , invest my life again in his people. Because only such investment, the profit that you get out of it , will remain standing till the end. Try investing in wealth , they will be used up. Invest in BGR as a love game, people's feeling will change & leave you like a fool. Invest in academic , you will turn into a TSS. [ Top Student Syndrome ] When you invest in people's lives, they change into a better person , living a better life - that profit remains forever. Sometimes it gets so easy for me to misfocus because i've got many things to worry about in my life , but i don't want my work to be an excuse or rather the plan of the devil to distract me in becoming the person God wants me to be. It's outrages if you realise that Satan been distracting you away for your true calling in life. Though now i lost my Faith in evangelism , i'll make sure this coming camp , i will get back what i ought to have. I'll make sure my hurt from the bareness in East View will stop making me fearful of outreaching!After O level, i gotta work full time in F&b restaurant to support my living next year - rent , poly fees , allowance. But i think one thing i can still do is to tutor my cg members haha. i'm good at science,E maths & Ang Mong. I may not be perfect , but i'll give all i have , but be careful not to give more than what you have . Haha, that's a lesson from John C Maxwell book. Hmmm really hope i can find a nice room to live in with no quarrelsome owners . You know lurh, sometimes when u live in other people house , they are not ur relative, so even if u paid for meals , later eat too much they will gossip u behind the back. ROFL.
Though now i dont have parents , i'm glad because i don't need to remain living in that tortuous mad house, despite now i have no financial back up and need to support myself in living for every single thing. I know , i will be independent , i am happy , i am finally free from them. It doesn't matter if i don't have parents , i never had a proper one anyway.
Don't need to care for people who dont cherish you. Spent your thoughts on people who seek it instead.My natural parents sell me for money , adoptive parent abuse me , but it's comforting to see how God carried me in his arms , he's my only father , the one who took care of me. He have seen me through enough of those nights i cried. Hmmm my hand still got one cane mark , yupp it's permanent LoLx. Of cuz ma, that time cane me till got blood, lol the skin peeled off. Eeew =S♪ Even the best fall down sometimes ...
Thursday, October 22, 2009
- Science Practical [ Dont worry, be happy ]
Well for my practical science today, i had quite a lot of setbacks but still , i'm happy & joyful cuz O level is finally here! ^^
Here are some of the setbacks:
- I thought my entry proof will write what time i ought to report for my exam so i threw away the notification letter. The fact is , my entry proof wrote all the timing for the papers EXCEPT this practical science. So i had to wake up early in the morning 6.45am to call the telok kurah sch to check but nobody answer the phone! I called them over a numerous from 6.45am-7.30am. In the end at 7.30am they say they dunno.[Smack their butt butt! haha ]. So i called the MOE , mine is at 2pm. Thanks God i was able to have moreee sleeepp.
- I studied only chem becuz i thg you can choose to answer either chem qn or physic. BUt when i enter the lab, i pak chao, saw only circuit experiment which is obviously physic lurh! Which i didnt prepared for exam. So i went :[
-When i sat down i saw got chem experiments next to me. All the chemicals are just what i studied few days ago. So i went :]
- When i got the paper, they wrote ''Answer BOTH qn'' . So i went :[
- After doing physic , it was so easy tht doesnt require me to study it to prepare myself. It's all abt measurements. So i went :]
- While doing chem, i heard the teacher say left some amount of time but couldnt hear properly since i was at way back of the lab. Wearing tht nerdy big google , i look at the clock, i thg i saw is 2.25pm. Next minute, i took it out, teacher repeat say left 5 mins. I was stunned, then i look at the clock with my perfect eyesight w/o that stupid google, it's 3.30pm! [ ends at 3.35pm ]. I only left one observation to do and identify the unknown elements. So i identified them but was rushing to do the last observation. I put distillated liquid in the hot boiling tube of solid(which i know paper said dont), end up, i fried the solid power so loud till the infront ppl look at me, esp this china guy. hmm so i did'nt finish last qn which carried 3marks? So i went :S
- In the beginning, i laugh at this china guy whose frin is 3/4. Teacher scolded him becuz he looks like some elmo thing, finr so long later kena burned by the bursen burner. But when i made that frying sound , he turned and laugh at me . -.- But i was surprised the china ppl all finished the paper so early and even wash finish all apparatus not like mine , all got solution lefted for the cleaner hee heee. Well china ppl are good at science n maths what. Shld have copy him!
Well , i believe every single thing that happens , whether bad or good , there's still a reason to smile and be happy. TaTa , i go luo sai. Haha oh crap! My leg cho jing! Pain! :[
Ahhh now not pain liao but toilet too dirty. Yeah someone is going to buy me my favourite shirt from Everlast! Tata ~ :]
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Few days ago, my police inspector called me and told me there was not enough evidence to carry on the case, therefore the case is closed. I asked him : '' so can i go home? '' . He answered : '' you wan go home , you go lo. You dont wan then it's your choice. It's your problem anyway. '' I thought i will be going back home to the bed i missed so much. But the road is ever changing.
I called my foster mom to tell her that i can go home liao. She claim that i was lying & refused to listen to me and said i was lying, trying to make more trouble. Very well! I called my inspector and asked him to tell her abt it , he said ok . He never said anything else. And ytd, my foster mother called me and said : '' Next time in the future you dont come back here to live anymore. I see the police letter, you go read it and see why u cannot come back here to live anymore.'' Then she hang the phone as usual . But the police never said i cant go home! And she didnt even show me the letter can. Becuz now my father is having depression, my foster mom is guarding him. So i tried to contact my dad and find out what the heck is happening. But my foster mom refuse to let me , it's either they dont pick up the phone if not, is hang it. I tried so many times to contact my dad but cant , until today my foster mother called back and said : '' You called back for what. I already told you, you cannot live here anymore. dont bother us again. Your things when free, i will put it at the gate, you ownself come and take. '' .
Even though she didnt use the word '' i disown you '' . It's so obvious they dont want me anymore. Plus my foster dad didnt pay my aunt any rent money. I cant live here for free you know, one need to be ' automatic '. This would mean i have to live myself independently but how can i even work enough to pay for rent , my allowance plus my poly fees next year? Poly fees cost $2000+ per year leh.
My friend asked me to go find some organisation who can support me to live indepentently or MYNC to be adopted again. But you know what? I never had a good family since young, never taste how it feels to be in one. I'm scare if i get adopted again same thing will happen. Should continue to hope that i will be able to find a good family or give up and live alone independently?
You know whats the worst thing? I dunno what my foster mom had been spreading . My aunt said to me : '' Even is it was me, i also scare to let you stay here, anyhow report to police. You and the wicked women on chnnl 8 (heart of greed show) is the same, like to make up stories. I may tell small lies but never a big lie! I would only be lying if this thing that happen was acutally only a dream. My foster mom & brother know it themself! I see ... is this ur trick? You know whats my brother status at home? He says one thing & everyone will tremble to obey him.Why? Cause he's so smart[ NUS] , strong [ 8 pac ] and the only son my foster family can depend on. It seems like no one believe me. Even if you dont, can one not say unnice things ? If you're my friend, you will know the real me! My brother barely had friends becuz of his stuck up attitude. LoLx.
From the day this thing happened, i NEVER hear my foster mom say anything wrong my brother did, not even a single thing like he was not right to punch my head against the wall. But what she says all along is i LIE AND MAKE TROUBLE.
I understand i'm not ur real children, i know you wanna protect ur dear son. BUT CRY OUT LOUD! Why couldnt you see what you doing??!!! Why are u covering somehting bad he done and never correct him yet you put it all on me?! Everyone is protecting him , TELL ME THEN WHO WILL PROTECT ME? WHO???? Have you ever thg abt my feelings? I get abused by you, thrown one side, misundestood, i kept quiet when you spread bad rumors to all relative till i couldnt speak for myself. Was i wrong to report to police to stand up for myself and teaching my brother that being smart & strong physically does mean you can cover up ur mistakes??
If you're reading my blog, esp long time readers . I will appreciate it if you can put down ur comment . I would like to know what you guys think .
♪ Wishing i had someone who believes in me and be there to guide me and walk through all these with me ...
Friday, August 28, 2009
Today was my o level English oral examination. As usual, i was the last student T.T
Well i was brainstorming about the topic and the same topic came out just as i expected! As if my dart had hit the red dot. ^^
It was a picture about helicoter poilte carrying an injuired man . With a helicopter behind. Here's how i did my Otal exam, here's my special tactic(Hee hee):
- [ Reading ]Greeted them. Lift the chair gently and sit. Reading with quite dramatic & expressive tone. For example, annoyed words must sound like one. It must be clear and not sound rushed.
Didnt read any word wrong, was damn surprise mmy reading was fluent.
- [ Picture ] Instead of what school teaches like : '' On the left hand side, right hand side, i think, my opinion blah blah~''
Those are outdated! How i started:
" This is a overview picture of blah blah"
" The part that draws my attention most is...."
" I can exact information like...becuz..."
" From my interpretation, the next thing they are gonna do is..."
" The purpose of this photo is to show the importance of civil defense....." [Teachers in schools left this out but i realise they will always ask u for the purpose of the picture]
And i used these vocab: Frantically,anxious,excruciating pain.
- [ Conversation ] Questions were : "Do you consider being a news reporter?" & " How do you feel abt ppl fighting each other in some countries"
Had a lot to talk. Becuz arguing about political stuffs is my strenght. And c'mon la, i watch so much drama abt news reporter [ My MVP qing ren], of cuz it's easy tro answer. Thank God ! ^^ The lady examiner was patiently listening.Untill the male Arabic examiner look at the clock and CUT MY CONVERSATION and said i may leave. ROFL . Well i got qutie a lot of approving nodds from them,felt assured. Was laughing before i enter the room becuz it's so easy. WAs laughing after i left the room becuz the examiner like cant tahan me then cut my conversations. Maybe becuz he's tired? I was the last student anyway. Totally monopolised the whole oral. Feeling evil & Satisfied . Give me A1 !!!! MUWAHAHAHAHA woooooo!!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Ytd i started playing L4D after a long break becuz something happened again. Hais it's not 1st time. Nvm .
Surprisingly, i played L4D to vent of my anger & unbalance feeling. I didnt turned out being bad temper, instead i was good tempered. Haha, play too much will affect temper i guess.
Two funny thing tht happened [VS]:
- All my other teammate kena boomer vomit(who ask them stay so close) except me. So my team naturally split to two team(at least they are zi tong cong ming), each team went to a toilet for hideout. It's no mercy stage 1. Then the opponent team took tht opportunity, two hunter came in me my partner's toilet. 1st hunter came in, kena my falcon punch(they call it) then died in the bathtub. Immediately, 2nd hunter came in, my falcon punch delayed so i kena hunter, my teammate falcon punch it. In the end the 2nd hunter stuck on top of me, all it could do was jumping and scatching me. In the end? both hunter died side by side IN the bath tub. The pic is funny at that time la. cuz we thg we will both kena hunter. heh.
- Blood harvest stage 1, near trian tracks. [ infected team ] I(smoker) was hiding the door for a good oportunity. Till suddenly my one dumb teammate(boomer) spawn behind me. I turned back looked at him, he look at me. i moved a step forward,turned back look at him, he copy me take one step! T.T
Why the heck did the boomer even come close to me, tht moment i was thinking '' die liao la''. In the end, i went to pull a stranged survivor, but the teammate very quick to come back shoot me for quite long. I faster dogde away, then the boomer still go to the door!! In the end the boomer died instead of me. LoL la. His explode ''helped'' me in zhao further distance. Nth to say. Tatta.
Monday, August 17, 2009
FEw days ago, i was looking at people around me, espectcially secondary students. And i finally realise how problems can change you into a much matured,wiser person. Being wise is very crucial in decision making and often, being wise makes u cherish the people and things you have. It gives you peace becuz you become grateful for the things you have.
Most people thinks problem are some God-given-punishment- that is a very sadist thing. BUt that's totally bullshit. Now i understand why tht pastor prophecy for me '' God gave you these problems is to make u stronger out of the group. He is using you for a greater purpose.'' I have not been doubting what you are moulding me. Though at times i cry, i feel crushed at these problems. But i know i will never be beaten by them, because i have you my lord. Having you in my life makes me a better person, living a fulfilling life, a girl with greater love. I'm very thankful becuz i have not become a revengeful bad girl becuz of my past nor do i live a meaningless life, everyday thinking why the hell am i on this earth.
Look at most of the secondary students. One of the most childsih scene will be some girls acting ah lian & ''big'' to win the attention of rowdy,proud,notorious or good looking guys by flirting and being ''un-nice''. And the guys will exchange vulgarities across & bullying others to impress girls becuz it makes them look ''strong''.
I'm like shaking my heads off them. Let me tell u something. What makes a person good looking? It's the person they are. Rmb any time an adult or stranger who was kind to you or treat you with love? Didnt you wish they was ur parent or feeling thankful for them? What makes a person strong. Life is full of set backs which are inevitable. Being able to GO THROUGH THEM & BECOME A BETTER PERSON shows the true strenght of one heart. Who ever is readin my blog, be it stranger or what. If you are going through some problems,ur past or how ppl treats you is making you give up hope to be a good person becuz it doesnt help. Let me tell you something, as much as there was one person who cared for u (ur parent/friend/stranger) and confirm, you appreciated tht blessed feeling. That feeling, never forget it, becuz nothing on Earth can make u have tht feeling, it's like a gift from a good heart. So be strong, when u fight to be a good person, trust me, when you grow up, there will be hell lot of people you inspire and you never know, becuz of ur love, people feel touched, it's something no money can buy. In the end, you will be a person people rmb, at ur funeral, ppl cry of ur love , they will rmb it, even if they dun, it changed them. For who would cry at a funeral of someone who is stingy,selfish,self-centred or wealthy with no happiness? Think abt it. Dont understand can ask me. Msn is xstarzx5@hotmail.com
Tatta! By the way, i'm very into korean guys! :D
Monday, August 10, 2009
I have been living with 2 aunties. One is at
bukit Gombak, i called her
Atin. I really dislike living there. Because the uncle there so stingy and selfish. They find me troublesome just
becuz sometimes i forgot to off their heater switch. Yet why did i even help them mop their dirty house secretly. Usually,
Atin say for lunch she will cook for me only on
monday and
tuesday. Once, i asked the uncle is the food for me. He
answerd ''hem''. I asked means she no cook for me? HE said ya. When
Atin came home,she said that was for me why i no eat. And that time i was ravenous!
Zzzz . And for the second time, the uncle told me this in such a tone : '' Those food not for you one. It all mine
ok. Dun have yours''. Just now my foster mother said they complain
i'm being very troublesome. I feel like telling them in the face. The problem might not lie on me but u yourself! You never even talk to me, cook for me. Why would i bother u??
Perhaps its u
urself lacked love , u hate going for miles to take care of people. And hello, at this moment
wat i need is support, i didnt asked much of u can. Zzz
I'm currently living with Auntie Jenny. They have a 3 year old daughter. Let me let you
wat is called love! She makes sure i got something to eat every morning. Every night she make sure she will open the door for me when i reach home though she needs to wake up very early
tmr. When i moved in, she make sure i got everything i needed . She even
obsevered things like i got not
enuf bra, bring me go buy. When i
didn't on the
toliet light while bathing, she will on it and the heater. Make sure the food i eat is warm not cold. Ask me to feel free to eat the things in the fridge when hungry.Tell me, the problem lies with me or you? You dun even do such stuffs. I take care of my meals, go
ur house, into the room and sleep. Did i even disturb
ur daily life? Auntie Jenny even talked to me
abt my work and my life. Such care and concern brings me back to my desire for a family like her. Maybe that will be my 1st birthday wish...
My foster mother also told me that she will bring me go see my real parent in Indonesia. If my cousin was right, i should have guess who they are. But...this is really very big blow to me. Imagine
ur real parent gave u away to a family and u suffer a lot. Then one day u have to see ur real parent. How would u feel? Angry or happy or sad that they give u away?
Hais...i still wanna study the poly school in Singapore. She said go ask my real parent sent me money to do so cuz me and my foster family have no connection anymore. Wont my real parent kinda hate me? That they have to sent money for me to study all these?
Hais....i feel that nobody wants me :( Finding it hard to swallow when i know
i'm going to see my real parent...really
dunnno how to feel or react... If only... they understand i'm not a bad girl all at. Have u ever seen my heart to be good? To love people? To study hard and chase my dreams? No..u dun right. Hias
Monday, August 3, 2009
Today i wanna blog about what has happened to me recently. So that at least people can stop irritating me and asking me same question and i really cant be bothered to tell so many people repeatedly. This is is where i will direct the next person who asked me tht. And please! I DONT NEED ANY BODY'S PITY. It will not help at all okay! I just wanna say what happened to me once and for all . It's a simplified version. Peace ~
When i was sec 4, i had lacked of motivation to go school. It all started from late coming to school. I always tried to have courage to go school even if i'm late cause i know people will ka chao u and being late means having detention. However, around August, i stopped going to school because i really had no motivation and i was scare to go to school. Soon a kpo teacher go tell principal. Some where along this year, around february was when they expelled me because1/3 of all the school days, i was either late or had MC.
I went to a lots of school but they do not accept sec4/5 transfer. So i called up MOE. We had a meeting in school. She decided to give me a chance. During that meeting was also the 1st time i saw my dad crying for me. That head of MOE women said that i was wasting her time. And to go back to school, i had to be on time to school and report to office and stay there for one month w/o going to classes. Then i had to stand in front of the whole class to say wat happen and wat i learned...blah blah. But they also said if i were to be late or absent for school for ONCE i will be expelled.
Damn it. I studied so hard for my SA1, 3 weeks before exam keep going airport to study. My Cg can witness that. Then during the middle of the exam,i was late. There i go kena expelled! Zzz. That was May 09. Stupid school, you expelled the wrong person!!! So many people late u also no expel. Look at other school la. You dont even know my heart! I love studying so much. Did you even know i always cant sleep till 3am+ & have to wake up at 5.30pm? You cant even be bothered to check it out la. If i really didnt cherish going school, i wont have worked so hard for my Cca had had many junoirs look up to me.I was not even ah lian in school. I was just a quiet girl who gives laughter and joy to her friend, one who looks forward to PE and not slack. Talking about helping me, giving me worksheets & notes for my o level. I asked my classmate, he said the teachers didn't even print any for me! Forget it. Freaking school. Now i'm currently working till 15 August 09 to have money for tuition . After 15 August, i will be mugging for O level.
One night my i discovered my brother took my morning leftover nasi lemak food which i HAD thrown into the dustbin, inside my cardboard. I got so angry that he's always doing such irritating things. So i messed up his books. Went toilet . He was raging with anger and shook my door. Demanded me to come out by his count of 10. I didn't. I slide open the window and asked why he did that thing. He finally banged down the door , came in and hit me. Had bruises, RIGHT head knocked the wall ( had old wounds there). That time i was half naked. I scream that ''dont think i dunno what u did to me when i was young. i can call the police''. He say '' call lo, think i scare?''. He stormed off to pass me the phone. I dialled through. Foster Mother took it away and said don't make things big. She fixed back the door. Hugged me . You think i was feeling happy and loved? Shit will! DAmn it, hug me only to stop me from calling police to protect ur dearest son? For all the time u could loved me u didn't, u abused me!
Bathed finish, went out called police. Currently this case is under investigation. Police asked me why i so long then report this rape case(8 years ago, when i was primary school). The thing is i was still young and it's no surprise as you know me - i had problems. I wasn't a favourite at home, i had school problems and they caned me all the time - slippers,belt,chili,bamboo cane. If i were to report to police, the whole family will hate me. For my brother was the only one capable of taking care of them, he's smart afterall. Being a small little girl, how the hell would i know that i can report to police? In fact after he raped me, few weeks later i told my foster mom about it. She just scold him only. I thought it was over. Till that night my brother punch me ( he have 8 pacs and large muscles ) , i finally let it all out...all the time i have been hiding it. Nobody know how his rape hasd left me feeling insecured.
Though i made that decision to stand up for myself.... The police also reminded me that by doing so, i sending their real blood son to Jail & this will mean they will hate me & everything will changed. I closed my eyes and know that this is gonna be another hardship, but one thing i know is that i'm saying the truth. The police said if i'm lying i will go to jail. At 1st i was afraid becuz my brother is so smart, he might think of ways to win this case. Had bad dreams twice that he was hitting me again and my parent helping him, seeing his griming face. Feel alone in this cause no one supports or is helping me. Though the police said if i'm saying the truth,the whole police force will help me. Ya right, i'm the one whose gonna face my family's response & hatred.
Police asked me to stay at my aunts house at Bukit Gombak till the case is over & stated that it was for my safety. LoL ,if i'm at my house i think my brother will kill me too. This Friday have to move house again to another auntie house. Few days ago i went home to take my things. No doubt i saw my parent writing information for my brother. My aunites keep thinking i make up these story to revenge the family for treating me bad. Man , wake up la. If i wanted to, i wont have suffer in silence and wont have done it earlier. Everyone dont believe my brother will rape me. Yes let me clear ur question. Molest is touch. Rape is his penis go inside me! I dont wanna say wat he did to me . Why? Because he's so smart & everyone thinks well of him. But no one knows his sickening temper. Even my father also asked me to forget about it and say it's not truth. That would be a lie you know?.. I know you all wanna protect him. I've got nothing to say...
Went for medical check up for the crime investigation. I had to be naked and let a male doctor touch my breast and dunno do wat to my vaginal. Damn pain and liquid came out! Pervert zzz. Next i have to go for lie detector test , court case. And this case will be for months. This year too many things is happening....i'm so worried for my O level. Hais keep moving house and all . Where do i get so much energy?
Yes it's all these that had been bothering me and having to work that makes me unable to go church. And please dont disturb me! I'm having a turbulence emotion in me. Even if i wan go church, i prefer solitude. Hate it when some people says '' Waaa so long no see ''. It's just irritating la. Wan say me backslide say lo. Like i give it a damn(not to those who really cared, cuz i can seen through things). I go church for God not for u guys! I know these problems is testing my faith in God. One thing i wanna say is .... God i'm never gonna give up totally on you. Give me time to settle my hasty heart, and i promise i will be back to you. Cause after all , it's you that gonna bring me through. If you wanna talk to me about God, make sure u have a discerning heart 1st. My such warning is because, if u said wrong thing, the bomb will set off.
I'm really sorry if i have been bad temper these days. I really wanna change myself to a better person. Perhaps my heart is too soft thats why i'm always being pushed around and taken advantage. I wanna be a quiet, mystic girl. With wisdom,compassion and discernment. In deed these things had i have gone through, though some are a mistake...i really learnt a lot more. Experiencing things in the ''outside world'' is like being into another dark dimension, i've seen and i've understood. From today onwars, i wanna declare, as much as they wanna disown me. I have no family. Dont ask me abt my parents. They are not my mother or father. They are foster and that remains as that. Why the hell did you gave me away to such family man....hias. I'm going through these alone you know? Are you dead or alive...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Usually at night , all staff can take home the leftover cheesecakes on the display shelf. If you shop at tampines1 a lot, you will know our cakes are popular and expensive. Being able to take them home days and eat them is something i really appreciate. So one day, i thought that instead of eating them myself, i would like my Cg members to have them too. So i msg Si rui , mabel & yan yu to ask them wat cakes they like, so that at night i can bring them home. Store in the frigde, next day pass to them.
Few days ago, i saw that there isn't the exact flavours they wanted so i went to the kitchen fridge to take new ones. I saw one of my colleagues taking something from there, so i thought it's alright to take from there for once. However, one of my chef saw me, he reporter to the managers.
Today when i went to work, 3 managers came to rebuke me about it. They said that by right, the leftover cakes are suppose to be sold the next day, we cant have them de. But they still let us have it, as long as the big boss dunno. My action of taking the 2 slices of cakes if seen again, that stupid chef will accuse me of stealing. T.T
Because of this, now the staffs are no longer allowed to take the cheesecake home. Hais i feel like i have pulled people down. All i was trying to do is to bless my Cg members ....turned out become a bad thing... :[
♪ Upset....
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Yesterday while i was walking home from
MRT , a yellow white cat with starving stomach
pur at me. So i went to
Sayang it. The next thing i know is that it followed me and even cross the road with me! To reach home, i have to cross 2 roads. That cute little cat keep walking in between my legs, so imaging me walking with legs wide open .
lmao. I felt so in love with this amusing cat so i decided to make it mine. Till.... when it's tome to cross the 2
nd road home. I already make sure there
isn't any cars so i moved. Then the cat followed me , till a stupid van suddenly came by!!
The cat then turns back. It became so frighten. So i tried to
Carry it across the road but it struggle to break free ... i had no choice but to quickly went home to made warm milk for that lovely cat.
But when i went back...the cat was gone and i heard that a
Malay person was playing with it and it followed the person to dunno where. I spent hours looking for it but there
wasn't luck. I'm totally upset... i
haven't even gave it a name... if only the van
didn't came, that lovely cat would have been mine!
♪ How could i ever find another cat like you? Sweeter than you, sweeter than you? :[ I miss you little kitty... if only u were mine....
♪ Age : 16